We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

The Lone Wolf Chronicles

by Timi Tamminen

/
1.
Monologue 02:51
lyrics
buy track
I’m here to talk about pain There’s many of us who carry a great burden inside behind that warm smile yet nobody could tell based on the outside… And sometimes that burden gets so heavy but you just learn to push through the pain, no matter how hard it might feel Because you know that the only way is forward I lift my arms up in the sky Pray and beg to anyone nearby Can’t you hear my cries I’m done doing my time This is my battle cry Learned survival through the trials It’s hard being kind in this ice cold world that bows to plastic, greed and lies Been a loner all my damn life No one sang me lullabies The dark years made me want to climb Wasted a lifetime trying to hide but I won’t go down without a fight I’ll die for my vision, friends counting on my decisions and drive Rolling in my bed at night Thinking out, “will this end right?” What if all this wasted time won’t pay dividend I’m just one out of millions trying to make my way out of this crumbling anthive Trying to use a single stone to spark a fire But it’s the obsession that fuels me All part of my migrant journal Very usual and unusual all at once I confess I’m scared of the time slowly passing me by While caught in this life’s razor wire Used to think about finalising my storyline Picturing Mom crying slowly turned me around I told myself “don’t ever stop, even if it gets so hard at times” Your life is just a lease They want to keep you on a leash Tranquilised, muffled like a steed Living someone else’s dreams vicariously We chase the ‘P’s’ Pussy, power, peace The tram rumbles, I weep Like Lucy, so gently I’m so tired I can’t get no sleep This is my monologue We’ll keep going ‘cause there’s no going back Time to turn that struggle into a testimony They have yet to see my prime Good night
2.
Repressed 03:11
lyrics
buy track
All my life I’ve tried to find my own purpose with this endless fervour All my life I’ve tried to hide my deepest burdens deep under the surface Somebody set me, somebody set me free, yeah ‘Cause sometimes things just ain’t the way they appear, no Living for this dream to express my own fire, to feel free and inspire But there’s another side of me when the cameras go quiet ‘cause I still keep running from myself Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo All my life I’ve swum around the hungry serpents hidden behind the curtain All this time I’ve repressed a major side of me Always overworking, denying that I’m hurting Somebody tell me I’m enough the way I am, yeah ‘Cause I’m a man drowning in my smallest mistakes in the endless sea of noise and passing hands, ooh Living for this dream to express my own fire, to feel free and inspire But there’s another side of me when the cameras go quiet ‘cause I still keep running from myself Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo Boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo Living for this dream to express my own fire, to feel free and inspire But there’s another side of me when the cameras go quiet ‘cause I still keep running, yeah yeah yeah
3.
The Lone Wolf Chronicles I-III 04:09
lyrics
buy track
The summer came and went, ooh The birds are flying south again, ooh Been looking for a friend once again, ooh Would you offer me your helping hand, ooh Would you? Back to the bottom A city like Sodom I’m trapped in this rotting tower The downpour roars with the falling sky It’s already autumn, what The post-partum mood is so solemn Showed nobody how I’ve been crawling Maybe some angels were meant to be fallen Now, I don’t like sounding this morbid but the last couple months been too torrid One colleague tried calling Told him “I’m doing something important” Right, I’m a liar, I just complained about boredom Get out of your room or you’ll still be lying there on the floor in the morning My oh my, this shall act as a warning Reset One of these days One of these days Things are going to change One of these days Lost in the heart of the city where the business is ugly and everyone is pretty They’ll likely slash your tires or your eyes to certify you won’t get far What did Jay say ‘bout love? Dead roses, guns and a whole lot of grudge The mirage of paradise is gone People struggling to get by It’s hard to be real in a plastic world full of facade Your tools and degrees won’t guarantee the ghouls won’t eat your heart These are the trenches of our generation It’s a spiritual war and the agents of chaos are working overtime I’m on that demon time A sharp shooter like Wyatt Flow clean like vegan diet So, here’s the paradigm I’ll narrate my own life to make you recognise our missions are alike I had to morph into a rockstar My life’s been a flop but this’ll be the jumpstart The spark One of these days One of these days Things are going to change One of these days One of these days One of these days Things are going to change We will make it, yeah
4.
The Waiting 03:37
lyrics
buy track
The season’s turning colder One more reason to stay sober I’m feeling so much older But the waiting ain’t over My pen is moving but the ink’s all faded The song remains the same, torn page I still haven’t made it I hate the thought of losing hope but keep on craving for someone to tell me that something will change some day The season turning colder One less reason to stay sober I’m fearing getting older The waiting ain’t over I’ve been overthinking, trying to find the right words My obsessive work has turned into both a gift and a curse The films and the stories promised us shiny dreams, not dirt Flying to Xanadu with a verse Nobody mentioned travelling there in a hearse The season’s turning colder One less reason to stay sober I’m fearing getting older The waiting, no, ain’t over The season’s turning colder One less reason to stay sober I’m fearing blue and older Yet the waiting ain’t over
5.
Catacomb 03:17
lyrics
buy track
This city don’t sleep The struggle don’t sleep This city don’t sleep The struggle don’t- Okay My room turned cold like a catacomb A lone wolf roaming so far from home Got no team, got no goons, just these grooves, yeah Trying not to read the news ‘bout those old ghouls Still spreading their venom, stealing our loot This rat race feels like a game of fools They rigged the rules, we’ve seen the proof My heart turned cold like a catacomb My heart turned cold like a catacomb My heart turned cold like a catacomb And I can’t find my way back home Roaming in the cold like a caribou Worn clothes, closed doors of the avenue Always on the verge of a new breakthrough The last twenty-two plans just fell through A part of me knows that real life ain’t like the shows A part of me knows that my delusion’s starting to show My heart turned cold like a catacomb My heart turned cold like a catacomb My heart turned cold like a catacomb My heart turned cold My heart turned cold My heart turned cold, yeah
6.
Lilac 03:50
lyrics
buy track
Back from black, no fiend could drag me back Life’s like a round of blackjack More cash, more room for drawbacks Most cats chase plaques I’m just backpacking on the race track Man on a mission with no map Dying to live like Kodak Flashbacks of lilac flats and lost past Ain’t had a blast like Bush, please don’t clap Barren playgrounds, urban wastelands Battling goliaths in the quicksand with a phony wolf pack Something changed Aged a decade or eight in a day From a child to a soldier mind Seeing shades of love and hate collide I cried on the sly Ain’t know how to dry those tears inside Just kept it wild Don’t be fooled by the pale skin I could rap circles around most of these people and um… This ain’t even my first language so… No excuses Learn from my mishaps This music path’s full of beartraps A contract could be a death cap Hold on to your hat, you need a slap You’ll find a crapton of cap Red flags painted lilac It’s been that since the dawn of rap Don’t nobody care about you, no Glitz and glamour faked for a day It’s a mirage, it’s all a game The predators disguised as prey Waving and smiling, gun out of frame Watch your step, watch your words If you nap they might grab your purse You’re not the last, you’re not the first It’s a free-for-all like in The Purge You arrive in the wide world with all that blinding innocence, like a blooming rose Lilac dreams, pitch-black reality It turns you cold You witness the selfishness You step into the traps You stop trusting strangers You turn numb to survive You build up that magnificently resilient stronghold with moats, gates and all but… You forget to invite anyone else in So you sit in its dark hallways all alone never daring to step outside Your castle has become your prison
7.
Holy Solitude 02:09
lyrics
buy track
Na-na-na-na-nah-na Holy solitude Na-na-na-na-nah-na How you ravish and consume Will I ever fall in love Will I ever fall in love Will I ever fall in love With anyone other than you Nah-na Holy solitude Na-na-na-na-nah-na You protect but then abuse Na-na-na-na-nah-na Holy solitude Na-na-na-na-nah-na You leave me so confused ‘Cause I don’t want to fall in love I don’t wanna fall in love I don’t wanna fall in love With anyone other than you Na-na-na-na-nah-na Holy solitude Na-na-na-na-nah-na Holy solitude Na-na-na-na-nah-na
8.
Hustler's Tango/City of Lies 03:46
lyrics
buy track
This place is a wilderness The people around you don’t wish you well, no Not a single trace of tenderness Just the cold hustle that never ends, no Ooh I keep pushing through praying change will come soon Would you like to dance with me before I go back to the sea? You’ve got no clue of what I’ve seen, what I’ve gone through, no We always see the gloss and the fame Never the dirt and the pain Prepare for the ride ‘cause only the strongest survive in this city of lies In this city of lies Caught in this game A million miles away Every day’s a race Painted by ambitions and pain I’ve told you ‘bout the fighting Told you ‘bout the crying, told you ‘bout this city of lies I’ve talked about desire, talked about the fire, talked about the void that’s inside I’ve warned you ‘bout the vipers, warned you ‘bout the tigers, warned you ‘bout this city of lies I’ve told it in my writings: behold, the phoenix rising Welcome to this city of lies
9.
Together Alone 03:19
lyrics
buy track
If I told you a secret would you be willing to keep it? I’ve been hiding my weaknesses Never letting people see the real me Hold me for a while Squeeze me so tight Help me stop the time Let’s take it slow Show me your flaws and I’ll show my own Together alone The temptations kept me running Living in my own fantasy But I changed so much here in London Now I’m tired of cruelty and vanity Show me something natural, something real And hold me for a while Squeeze me so tight Help me stop the time Let’s take it slow Show me your flaws and I’ll show my own Together alone
10.
Forever November 05:33
lyrics
buy track
How could we go from lovers to strangers in so little time? And as usual I envisioned too much and ignored all the signs These times are hard And since you’ve been gone I’ve been in that november kind of mood You erased all my doubts I thought I’d finally found my four-leaf clover And the sun was out but you had to go and ask winter over Now the times are hard And since you’ve been gone I’ve been in that november kind of mood Why did you have to wound me this way? Why would you blemish all we had with gray? And I’ve gone back to the dark since you’ve been gone, drowning in that november kind of mood
11.
The Cursebearer 03:38
lyrics
buy track
It’s back with its bad ways It always finds my place I’ve tried screaming in its face Throwing plates and threats, setting it ablaze But it crawls back through the fire With that hollow smile I’ve tried fighting back but my resistance just turns it on Now I’m falling I’m-I’m-I’m falling I’m-I’m-I’m falling I’m-I’m-I’m falling Now I’m crawling I’m-I’m-I’m crawling And I’m-I’m crawling I’m-I’m-I’m crawling They say it’s been around It’s seen kings and systems crumble down It can make a beast feel small And the air around it turns ice cold It crawls back through the fire Looking different every time It sees through your tricks and lies You can’t negotiate the price And now I’m falling I’m-I’m-I’m falling I’m-I’m falling I’m-I’m-I’m falling And now I’m crawling I’m-I’m-I’m crawling I’m-I’m crawling I’m-I’m-I’m crawling
12.
The Undercurrent 03:39
lyrics
buy track
Blinding lights The dream-like sight A wall of sound Tears flowing out My life is a movie This room is my stage, room is my stage This is a sacrifice, not a life phase, not a life phase ‘Cause I live for the greatness You can’t take my place, can’t take my place, no And when the show is over I’ll leave in a haze without a trace But there’s an undercurrent you can’t see, can’t see And I gave my all just to stand here, stand here It’s always there and I can’t breathe, can’t breathe It’s slowly dragging me down, dragging me down I survived those lonely times but I paid the price I morphed into what I dreamed about in this lake of fire A new fight every night These songs were carved in the blood and the blight Picture David fighting Goliath with a broken sling You’ve got no clue how long I’ve had to swim There’s an undercurrent you can’t see, can’t see And I gave my all just to stand here, stand here It’s always there and I can’t breathe, can’t breathe It’s slowly dragging me down, dragging me down It’s dragging me down
13.
Running in Place 02:41
lyrics
buy track
Lost in this city where love is so hard to find I’m barely breathing All my time is spent on trying How long ‘til all the stars align or was it all just a lie? Running in place Got no time to waste Running in place Got no time to waste, no Running in place Still alive in the city where trust is so hard to find I’m struggling to get me some rest in this sleepless time It’s freezing, I’m spinning in my bed as the crackfiend howls We’re caught in this spinning limbo Just chasing a job that sucks the soul out How long ‘til all the stars align or was it all just a lie? Running in place Got no time to waste Running in place, yeah Got no time to waste, yeah Running in place
14.
Aquarium 03:52
lyrics
buy track
37:37 Page of swords Toby Keith and suicidal thoughts 5AM again What are you doing? I sleep through the days I dream through the nights Is this an interview with a vampire? Weirdly enough, others handle the bloodsucking Give me one good reason I should trust anyone Like a kid saying he’ll climb up a slide I get all certain each time, then fall right back down Right back down, yeah This vodka’s been drinking me Once again time duped me with ease She borrowed me some interim days I forgot to enquire ‘bout those interest rates I’m a fish trying to swim out of an aquarium Life is a funny little thing, yeah
15.
Reflections 03:01
lyrics
buy track
Reflections So blinding How would you show that you care I want to be there, be there, be there, be there I’ve been taking my time Analysing my life I haven’t let anyone peer inside Always working to run from my dark side All this chaos has been happening in my own mind How would you show that you care I want to be there, be there, be there, be there I’ve been waiting for my time Waiting for the light at the end of this tunnel I just keep on trying Patience running out I know it takes time but could this be the one? I’ve never found real love Perhaps that’s the reason I’m trying to build my dream empire or find my inner child But the past is out of reach The reflection’s everything I see Reflections So blinding
16.
Migrant Journal 04:26
lyrics
buy track
Born in the shadows All my life I’ve had to fight I’ll be back tomorrow I just need a sign Fear the one who has given their all for a colossal dream because at that point there’s nothing stopping them but victory or erasure I was born to be a great It’s always been a trait My life’s been like a maze I’ve tried to find my place And maybe I’m amazed ‘Cause now I’ve spread my wings I’ll soar like golden eagles Shout out to Beatles Was just yesterday I got a feeling, yeah I’m glad I took that train Look at what I became But it was no fairytale Ain’t had nothing but my brain Nearly went insane Changed from young and frail to a trailblazer Told the haters “see you later” Dodged some craters Met some traitors, kings, their makers, fellow sailors All part of the big plot Sing along This is deeper than just fame It’s a war against hate The plague of modern days You don’t have to show your face to spread destruction We live around dysfunction These negative eruptions are disruptions to your bigger aims Just focus on your lane Don’t let them change your fate ‘Cause you can fall prey in this city of scavengers and rain And I’m still awake ‘Cause I can’t catch a break It’s like Amazon warehouse on acid Gave away my salad days, my happy place, my name, my team mates, every small detail to celebrate with you today Can’t tell how many demons and goliaths I’ve slain Ooh, I’m writing this to motivate They never see the inner flame until you’re in the hall of fame You’ve got this, stay safe and stay great They have no clue what you’ve been through Your power is the proof Your voice is the truth So wield it like a sword Use it carefully and use it well Because it has the power to create, destroy and inspire
17.
Soar 02:52
lyrics
buy track
When I feel lost and blue like I do right now I just put that pen on the paper That’s how I heal I know soon I will bloom like a ruby rose It just takes strength and patience ‘Cause I need loving too, I just choose playing it cool Perhaps to hide the hurt that I’ve cradled I’ll get up stronger than before and I’ll soar That’s what I was born for When you feel like you can’t find any hope Keep in mind, it’s just a temporary sensation ‘Cause you will be free from those shackles in your mind in a while Smile, take pride in your strength and dedication You’ll get up stronger than before and you’ll soar ‘Cause that’s what you were born for
18.
Never Quit 03:14
lyrics
buy track
Something keeps me pressing on And I know - and I know - and I know I won’t turn back I’ve had to hear a million no’s But I won’t - but I won’t - but I won’t ever do that I will never quit, no I’ve come too far to quit I will never quit, no I’ve come too far to quit Too far, too far I can hear another storm But I’m not - but I’m not - but I’m not worried ‘bout that The hardships and hurdles turned me strong You can tie me down Strive to make me drown in doubt Try to burn my essence down I will come back I will never quit, no I’ve come too far to quit I will never quit, no I’ve come too far to quit Too far, too far
19.
Maitojunalaulu 02:42
lyrics
buy track
Kerrotaanpas tähän loppuun vielä pieni tarina Viis vuotta sitten mä lippuni ostin ja lähdinpä maailmalle Viis vuotta sitten mä kaikkeni annoin hullulle unelmalle Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Hullulle unelmalle Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Hullulle unelmalle Viis vitun kertaa mä vastasin että luovuta minä en koskaan Viis vitun vaunua epäilijöitä mut luovuta minä en koskaan Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Luovuta minä en koskaan Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Luovuta minä en koskaan Viis vitun vuotta mä vankina vietin Nuppini orjana siedin Lauluja loin minä luojien tuomana Itkin ja raivosin yksin Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Itkin ja raivosin yksin Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Itkin ja raivosin yksin Viis vuotta myöhemmin vieläkin väännän Vahvaks ja viisaaks on tultu Haistatan paskat mä motkottajille On teidän epäilyt kuultu Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Sillä minä se en koskaan muutu Ai, ai, ai Ai, ai, ai Minä se en koskaan muutu

credits

released September 1, 2022

All songs written, produced and performed by Timi Tamminen

Thanks to MOSCO ENTERPRISE for the mastering work on the majority of the songs

license

all rights reserved

tags

If you like Timi Tamminen, you may also like:

Bandcamp Daily  your guide to the world of Bandcamp

On Bandcamp Radio

Featuring Riley Pinkerton (aka The Rat Queen) from the theatrical NYC rockers, Castle Rat.
listen now