Side B (Everyone's Got a Past)

by Timi Tamminen

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carelesshornyshamelessbored 05:03
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Damn girl, you sure turn me on [I saw you standing there, I couldn't help but stare - no] The party's just about to start, yeah [We've been up twenty-three hours but we ain't going to sleep - no] Baby, let's just get it on now Baby, let's just get it on Baby, let's just get it on now I've got my Marvin mode on Baby, let's just get it on now Baby, let's just get it on Baby, let's just get it on now The party starts when we get home, yeah You've heard this song many times before Get on the floor, we haven't changed at all We're still careless, horny, shameless and bored *autotune solo* The house is all fired up [All the hands are in the air - yeah - I've got my face in your hair - yeah] Someone must have called the cops, yeah [But do we look like we care - no - it just feels like a dare - that's all] You've heard this song many times before Get on the floor, we haven't changed at all You've heard this song many times before Get on the floor, we haven't changed at all We're still careless, horny, shameless and bored *autotune solo* carelesshornyshamelessbored Maybe do it in the bathroom stall, maybe do it when we get home Maybe do it in the bathroom stall, maybe do it when we get home Maybe do it in the bathroom stall, maybe do it when we get home Maybe do it in the bathroom stall, maybe do it when we get home ...
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Between (Interlude) 01:25
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Standing on the bridge between the east and the west Between weekend heaven and weekday hell Between the feverish fantasies and the mundane truth Between the American dream and the Russian reality Somewhere between a boy and a girl Somewhere between dead and alive Somewhere Between Euphoria's kiss Youth’s tapestry unfolds An ever-shifting canvas of joy and ache Where innocence dances and violence sings Somewhere Between
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Killing Time 03:11
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I'd be a liar if I said my life's been thrilling It's a film where nobody dies, time is all I'm killing Only alive on Fridays, parties as a filling To the deep emptiness inside, I'm counting cars for a livin Cracks in the mirror Staring at the figure That won't be getting leaner as years roll by "Uh oh, uh oh" You've got time "Uh oh, uh oh" That's what I keep saying "Uh oh, uh oh" Killing time "Uh oh, uh oh" That's how I waste my days Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'd be a liar if I said I ain't got a billion Questions like what it must be like in Seoul or London Small talk with the neighbour 'bout the weather He's said the same words a hundred thousand times I dream of getting out "Uh oh, uh oh" You've got time "Uh oh, uh oh" That's what I keep saying "Uh oh, uh oh" Killing time "Uh oh, uh oh" That's how I waste my days Won't you come and save me? Please won't you come and save me? Please "Uh oh, uh oh" You've got time "Uh oh, uh oh" That's what I keep saying "Uh oh, uh oh" Killing time Killing time, killing time, killing time, killing time That's how I waste my days
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Untied 03:48
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I've been untied I've been untied Do you know what it's like when you've lived a half-life for years and years and years hiding who you truly are? Do you know what it's like when you're left crying outside for years and years and years and you're just told to smile? Now I know why I've been feeling denied Now I know what freedom truly tastes like I've been untied Is this what you wanted? I've come roaring back [had to figure it out myself, had to figure it out myself] You started a fire I've been untied, yeah This is a warning I've come roaring back [had to figure it out myself, had to figure it out myself] You started a fire I've been untied Yeah, yeah I've been untied Do you know how it hurts when they brand you as cursed? Like a vermin burning, slowly squirming, pleading for mercy on the turf But the tables have turned and if there's one thing I've learned It's that payback might not quench your thirst but it sure feels good because it always works Is this what you wanted? I've come roaring back [had to figure it out myself, had to figure it out myself] You started a fire I've been untied, yeah This is a warning I've come roaring back [had to figure it out myself, had to figure it out myself] You started a fire I've been untied
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Fragile Masculinity (Interlude) 01:18
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There's nothing as dangerous as a lonely, unremarkable boy who has finally found his tribe and his religion: the performance of fragile masculinity
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The Party's Not Over 04:42
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Man, I'm not sure if I'm coming today, uh... The last time was so wild I promised myself not to drink so... I think I might just stay home... ... Sike The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so ['Cause we don't care what the people think] 'Cause we don't care what the people think It's the life on the edge with a bitter twist Friday's here, it tempts with a kiss I got my bag full of cure, I can take the hits Sealed demons crawl out out of the spritz I wanna brawl, I'll fight off twenty fists Been bowing down all week, making my list of what I wanna do and what I wanna demolish The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so ['Cause we don't care what the people think] Just woke up in a strange king bed Time for the fourth round, no stopping it The walls still stand but we've left a mess We're all good guys 'til the groupthink begins Who wants some fries? The least drunk here can drive Cram all the crew inside the car like the last time SOS, there's not enough seatbelts [SHUT UP AND DRIVE] Full throttle, the steel horse jumps like a huge meteorite Hope there's no in sight, we're too young for goodbyes The beer flies, four-five-seconds from dying Headlights gleam like the diamonds, more on the brain than love The red light whispers "come through" like Aubrey All of the lockjaws tight, nobody bats an eye Are these the guys you wanna hear your last loud song with? The road bends like a hot knife Somehow we make it back to the madhouse "Bitch better have my champaigne or pint fresh out of the fridge" Surprise of the night: we're still alive and kicking The strange coctail of guilt and pride Aw man, here we go again for the thousandth time The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so Ey - ey - ey - ey - ey - ey - ey You're not quitting yet man, take some of this ... See? Much better, now let's dance The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so The party's not over before we say so [Everyone - hands up in the sky - everyone - hands up in the sky]
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Sunday (Dead Alive) 04:33
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Feels like my Feels like my Feels like my life's crashing down I'm still stuck in this ghost town with no way out So cynical and run-down Feels like there's no one around whenever I hit the ground Oo, yeah Feels like my life's crashing down The sun's been swallowed by clouds The sky's turned smoky, the ground's now all gray If I had the drive I'd drown myself But I'm just a cowardly clown who won't learn from his own mistakes It's just another Sunday that I've spent wondering Can you die if you've never lived? I used to feel so bouncy, now I'm full of doubting Something strange has been creeping in It's just another Sunday that I've spent wondering 'Bout how to conceal the tracks of my tears I used to feel so bouncy, now I'm full of doubting Where's the resolve? Lost and never found A mediocre man shouting into the wind You won't see me in a crown Someone ate all the breadcrumbs How am I supposed to run when I can't even get up in the morning? That's the pros and cons of being dead alive It's just another Sunday that I've spent wondering Can you die if you've never lived? I used to feel so bouncy, now I'm full of doubting Something strange has been creeping in It's just another Sunday that I've spent wondering 'Bout how to conceal the tracks of my tears I used to feel so bouncy, I don't say this proudly Where's the resolve? I just want to be myself I just want to be myself I just want to be myself But that's the problem, I don't know who I am
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Dial 03:45
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Mmm Yeah, yeah Look in my eyes, what do you see? The rage and the pride Yeah, you made me You made me I was shaped by this town, trampled and defiled Tied up, never found but somehow I survived - yeah, yeah You just made me loud And what you start is what comes back 'round It's another lesson learned, you just made me loud Yeah Look what you created You couldn't change my stripes but you tried Look what you created I won't dial it down I'll never dial it down - no, I won't Dial it down - no, I won't No, I won't - no, I won't - no, I won't [And what you start is what comes back 'round] I'll never dial it down - no, I won't Dial it down - no, I won't No, I won't - no, I won't - no, I won't [It's another lesson learned, you just made me loud] No, I won't No, I won't, no No, I won't Look in my eyes, how do you feel? Are you scared of my mind and how real I can be? Yeah, yeah I can smell your fear Allow me to be sincere I'm tired of being the dirt beneath your feet You mean nothing to me, to put it as kindly as I can I'll never dial it down - no, I won't Dial it down - no, I won't No, I won't - no, I won't - no, I won't [And what you start is what comes back 'round] I'll never dial it down - no, I won't Dial it down - no, I won't No, I won't - no, I won't - no, I won't [It's another lesson learned, you just made me loud] You'll never put out this type of fire
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Groupthink (Interlude) 01:22
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The collective addiction to chaos and toxicity is often very normalised You don’t think or stop to analyse You just do it because everybody around you does it the same You enjoy the moment and worry about the consequences later When you first discover your rage, you’re intimidated by it Your problems aren’t your own anymore You start blaming the world for them Naturally, sex and violence become your only two ways of showing value in this primal system It’s just for the bragging and the ego You don’t question it because you’ve always seen it You grow up into it without thinking about it until you detach yourself from that environment and finally see the full picture And the people who are hurt… They spread that hurt to other people without anyone ever questioning it or stopping to ask ‘why’ Everyone’s mentally bruised … And the day’s go by And you’re still stuck in your same old patterns There’s a nagging sense in your brain telling you that ‘you’re capable of so much more’ But you don’t stop and listen to it You just tell it to be quiet and resume the old way of living
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Bruised 03:12
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Do what you like To run from your life 'Cause this tiny town's a big playground Dirt is what we are We've known it all our lives The dream is dead, the lies left you blind This is a new era, do what you like They don't care 'bout us Why should we care 'bout them It's a cold world and you only have yourself Bruised Some think about tomorrow Some move out of this place Friday night's alright for fighting because nothing that you build ever seems to last in this rat race Blood and bruises get you high It's your meaning in this town You used to have a gentle side Now you can't even cry Bruised Do whatever you like Do what you like The rules don't apply 'Cause tiny town's a giant playground for your kind
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Freeze Frame 03:40
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What if this film has no plot? What if I've moved past all of the best parts? What if I'll be buried in my backyard in a grave with no name? Life full of talk with no action What if this film has no plot? What if it's just a freeze frame? Bittersweet whiskey, desperation stays Frisky feels, risky prospects remain A town with one club, a house with no name It stays the same, baby The kindling's wet, the fire's been pierced by the rain The friend circle keeps shrinking away I've done my time in this weekday jail Sometimes I close my eyes and fly away And fly away And fly away And fly away What if this film has no plot? What if I've moved past all of the best parts? What if I'll be buried in my backyard in a grave with no name? Life full of talk with no action What if this film has no plot? What if it's just a freeze frame? What if I'm just a cautionary tale and somebody keeps rewinding the tape? Everyone's found real love or moved away Nothing's changed, baby Electric fence pissing, eyes glued to the screen All these highlight reels, all my Disney dreams Minutes burn away like nicotine That's right Wrinkle-checking, eyes still glued to the screen Who am I, what am I meant to be? Keep your fistful of dollars, company's all I want Purpose is all I need Silver hickeys on my skin from the job that slowly kills It barely pays all my bills What if my youth slips away while I still sleep? While I still sleep While I still sleep While I still sleep What if this film has no plot? What if I've moved past all of the best parts? What if I'll be buried in my backyard in a grave with no name? What if this film has no plot? What if I've moved past all of the best parts? What if I'll be buried in my backyard in a grave with no name? Life full of talk with no action What if this film has no plot? What if it's just a freeze frame? Just a freeze frame Just a freeze frame Just a freeze frame
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Slightly Less Fun 05:02
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Drink if you need to, smoke if you need to The feeling won't go away Fight if you need to, fuck if you need to The reality won't change We don't look like we used to, don't talk like we used to - no, no Times have truly changed The bells don't ring like they used to "Think 'bout your future for a day" is all I tell myself I thought all of this would last until the end of time Another year has gone so fast having slightly less fun than the last time Another night out with the same crew They ain't got no clue of how this'll end It's not getting prettier The feeling like a tattoo Drink if you want to, you'll still fell the same - yeah It just won't go away I thought all of this would last until the end of time Another year has gone so fast having slightly less fun Slightly less fun than the last time Slightly less fun than the last time, last time Slightly less fun than the last time Breaking rules is less fun when there are none I thought all of this would last until the end of time Another year has gone so fast having slightly less fun than the last time
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Pause - Rewind - Replay 03:38
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Caught in a spiral Caught in a spiral I'm tired of this world so I dance the pain away All this controlled chaos somehow keeps me sane The demons come back whenever I take a break So I pause - rewind - replay, pause - rewind - replay I'm caught in a spiral where the mundane and the extreme violently collide This lifestyle would go viral 'cause you got nothing to lose when you've been pushed aside, yeah Just close your eyes and sing like everything's just so damn fine I'm tired of this world so I dance the pain away All this controlled chaos somehow keeps me sane The demons come back whenever I take a break So I pause - rewind - replay, pause - rewind - replay I'm caught in a spiral These deviant nights are all that I have Our only plan is that there is no plan, yeah Living in denial, feeling alive knowing that we'll be damned But hey, you would never understand Just close your eyes and sing like everything's alright Caught in a spiral Caught in a spiral I'm tired of this world so I dance the pain away All this controlled chaos somehow keeps me sane The demons come back whenever I take a break So I pause - rewind - replay, pause - rewind - replay
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Resentment & Repression (Interlude) 00:58
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I was angry at the world and the person I truly hated the most was my own reflection in the mirror I just never told anybody, not even myself My hatred and insecurities were boiling, and it was when I was by myself that I was able to strip this suit off and really reveal how I was feeling deep inside myself at that time I realised that nobody else was coming to save me and that all of this lifestyle was just a distraction All of it was an escape from who I really was... Or rather... Who I really wasn't
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Natural Selection (The Boys' Night Out) 07:10
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What are they up to this time? It's the boys' night out What are they up to this time? It's the boys' night out You better move out the way when the boys come out to play This motley crew just can't be tamed, no - no Putting all the blame on the world It's like this herd thing's got us all cursed Turned on by either seeing things burn or charming girls, girls, girls Trying to blow smoke up their skirts, yeah Nobody's really concerned When will these people learn we're just erratic animals dressed up in jeans and shirts? This is an ode to my darkness How did I turn this heartless? Lying on the ground like a carcass Finding the power to get up regardless I could blame it on being heartsick but the truth is I'm no longer harmless That rotgut made me think I'm a spartan The weekend's a blur like always The parklife and these dazed dog days and the sharp knife wannabe thug lifestyle The dark side of the fatherless hive mind Thinking we're godlike The dealer's got a hotline The eyes never lie and these eyes are filled with pain But not the type you see in the games and films We're way too cozy yet look for ways to get someone slain Ain't that what they call insane? Yeah Yeah If only your mama saw you in this state Yelling at the women on the streets The hate and the vulgar haze You should be ashamed Do you even think about what you say? Watch out, don't trip over the drain You can't even walk straight You've been undraped This shit stopped being entertaining a while ago, you're still a baby A manchild playing a game with the world escaping himself You're no role model Was it worth trading your books for cocaine hanging out with racists and future rapists And you really think you'll be famous Playing on the big stages when you can't even save yourself, no no Give me a break You're trying your hardest to hide your ache The more you take, the more you stain You can't fight or fuck your pain away There's no one left to blame but yourself But yourself No, no, no But yourself When will you break Acting like a group of apes How much more can you take No one will remember your name [Face to face with the man in the mirror] The world's your playground but you've run out of time The world's your playground but you've run out of time The world's your playground but you've run out of time The world's your playground but you've run out of time The world's your playground but you've run- You have to play god for one more night The world's your playground but you've run out of time You have to play god for one more night What the hell have you done this time? What the hell have you done this time? What the hell have you done this time?
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Everyone's Got a Past 07:09
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Pack your bags, we're leaving And please believe me, yeah We're never ever looking back, no The road's pitch-black and it's freezing The breadcrumbs have been eaten, yeah But there's no turning back anymore No turning back anymore The world's a carnivore, you're the meat You'll find out you've got no one When you wake up from your sleep and you find out you've got no one Where will you run? Where will you run? Where will you run? Where will you run? Where will you run? Turn off your phone, grab only what you need You've got no map Your fate is in your own hands, yeah You can't delete your memories We've all got a past It's what you make of it what matters Like it or not, the change is here There's no turning back So just run and never look back Don't look back Don't look back No, no, no Just run and don't look back Don't look back Don't look back Just run away Run away [Where will you run?]
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Used 03:21
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It still feels like yesterday [yesterday] The news and the trends never found the way [never found their way here] I can't close my eyes anymore, no My innocence is dead and gone, yeah We used to want to grow up so hard We used to think we could just stop time We used to think we'd do what we want I don't know anymore We used to think we'd all learn to fly We used to think we'd be friends for life We thought the grown-ups knew 'bout it all I don't know anymore, no I don't know anymore No, no My body's still young, my mind's tired and old [my mind's tired and old] The things that warmed my heart now leave me cold [I wish I could erase everything I know] No, I can't turn back anymore No, no So take one more look at this all and prepare to run, just set it all on fire and start all over We used to want to grow up so hard We used to think we could just stop time We used to think we'd do what we want I don't know anymore We used to think we'd all learn to fly We used to think we'd be friends for life We thought the grown-ups knew 'bout it all I don't know anymore We used to think that we've got nine lives We used to think the world's full of life We used to think the good always triumphs I don't know anymore We used to think we'd never grow old We used to think nothing could ever go wrong That we'd be safe behind these bubble-wrapped walls I don't know anymore I don't know anymore I don't know anymore I don't know anymore I don't know anymore

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released September 22, 2020

Written, produced and performed by Timi Tamminen

Thanks to Mosco Enterprises for the mastering work on "The Party's Not Over", "Everyone's Got a Past" and "Used"

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